I don't have enough money... Not enough money to follow my dream >_<

I wanna go to http://www.barcourse.net/ which is an awesome barschool, where I'd learn how to do cocktails and stuff! And I could work in cocktail bars!

But even if I save up all the money I get (or as much as humanly possible) I'll only have around £400.. So I'd need like.. another £800 in order to have enough for food and stuff >_<

... Anyone feeling generous? >_<
Joking aside :p I've considered trying to take out an unsecured loan from a bank or something.. Maybe I'll look into it next week.. Hum

Just some guy I work with (and ultimately dislike.. I can get along with pretty much anyone as long as they want to get along with me.. I think he just wants to be aggressive and pushy).

He was getting very stressed and kinda angry just because he couldn't find a wine cooler (we only have three and they're usually around the restaurant somewhere) for a customer.. I mean we take the chilled wine right from the fridge, and chances are it will get drunk pretty quickly..

Ah well. I don't like him at all. I don't make a great attempt to be friendly. I just wonder why some people allow themselves to be so easily worked up. I mean sure I get a little stressed at work every now and then. But when it comes down to it... it's just a job. It's not WORTH getting unhappy over.

Mm.. yes. The only thing worth anything is happiness. By extension anything that makes people happy :) Love.. friendship.. playing games..  hobbies :) (Preferably nothing that hurts people.. lol. )

This guy I work with anyway, Jason, he did say at one point (in his crude butchering of the english language accent ) "You wanna know why I'm so stressed?" (paraphrased) "4 years ago today my dad died"
.. I said one thing, and thought 2 things. Said "Well I'm sorry but that's not my fault" .. and I know it sounds harsh.. but if you ever met this guy you'd realise anything you say doesn't have a great impact. And it's not my fault. Why should he act like an almost-asshole to me for it?
T'other thing I thought.. if you knew you were going to be like this why didn't you TAKE THE DAY OFF???! ...
... yeah.. I don't like him.
He's about the only person in the world I don't like.
Luckily I only work on Saturday with him. 5 hours. Tomorrow (sunday) I work 7 hours and he comes in when I leave, it's gooood. Need to talk to a manager about changing my saturday to a monday if possible.

It was awesome fun :)
'Nuff said :p

Although I shoot left handed, because apparently my left eye is dominant, either way :)

Way easier to get the hang of than Karate, lol

Today, what to do >_<
I wanna buy incense and some other nifty stuff from eBay and another site, but I don't know if I got paid today >_< Hopefully I'll have £60 and another £20.. I'll only be spending about £20 anyway. Need to wait until I can check what's in my bank though (I should really set up my bank account for online banking someday..)

Working over the weekend, today is my last empty day until college ends, I should REALLY work on my spanish oral exam.. I'll go wash and decide after. Hmm.

Whatever you choose for your life's meaning makes it meaningful, whether it's becoming a doctor to help people, a journalist to spread news or whatever...

Although I've only recently started I think martial arts are meaningful to me, they're slowly bringing to me a kind of grounding which I need.. My energy is kind of erratic at the best of times, lol..

But Love of COURSE makes life meaningful! Everything needs it.

Nifty.. Ok so summary of events and future events:

Presently at College, 6 weeks of classes left after Easter, I don't care a whole lot about it all anymore.. Which is okay because I don't have plans to go to university.
Working part time at a bar in a restaurant, after college I'll be taking up more shifts there if I can. The pay is crap but it's good for now.

Soon, my timetable of non-college activities will hopefully be this:
Monday: Do-nothing day
Tuesday: Evening, Shotokan Karate
Wednesday: Morning, Tai-Chi, Evening, Shotokan Karate
Thursday: Evening, Archery
Friday: Evening, Shotokan Karate

Saturday: Work 6pm - 11pm
Sunday: Work 11am - 6pm

And then some weeks later Archery will be replaced with Kendo.
As you might notice, I'm going for "Warrior" in a big way :p Hopefully, come 5 - 10 years the world will end and I'll fight demon hordes or soemthing :p

Aspiration after college: Work at the bar, then hopefully work in a hotel bar, then cruise ship / carribbean.

So that's me basically.